Our Savior is Born!

As they say, this is the season to be jolly. But with all the series of unfortunate events that we've experienced, can we really still afford to be jolly?

I believe that Christmas is one of the best seasons to reflect. I, myself, had my own downtime for the past 2 months where a couple of news led me to become emotionally unstable. In fact, even now -- this Christmas -- I still get teary-eyed because of the recent past. At times when I'm just alone, I can't help but reminisce moments I wish I could do all over again with the people I cherish. There are times that I can't really understand life -- times that I ask God what our purpose is, how come things happen all of a sudden, and why can I just not be hurt after all these. Nonetheless I come to think again... I guess these life dramas make me realize how important my family and friends are to me. It also made me learn more of My God which brought me to a deeper understanding of my faith in Him. :)

Despite the tragedies of life, THERE WILL ALWAYS BE HOPE.

That is, for me, an accurate statement.

In my case, I am still on the process of standing up. I was very much affected by the death of my uncle not just because I can't see him or feel his presence on Earth anymore, but also because of my relatives who are still unable to move forward after such unfortunate event. I can't seem to move on when they are still mourning. It makes me even sad because I think that life is really too short and that anything can happen in a blink of an eye.

But as I have said, THERE WILL ALWAYS BE HOPE! And that can only be genuinely gained THROUGH HIM and IN HIM. :) I know in myself that I can't be sad for a lifetime. I shall live my life according to my purpose. :) I believe that Christmas is the time of the year that leads me to hope once more and rejoice to the fact that in the end, there will be a Savior who shall reunite all of us in His Kingdom. It makes me calm to think that despite all the life dramas, there is a God who will make us realize that EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY.

For that, I thank the Lord, my God! I pray that I can have the peace of mind as I move forward and continue my life and purpose on Earth. I shall not fear death or any other tragedies. It is the REALITY and acceptance of reality shall make us stronger people with deeper and more meaningful faith in God.

So, now I say YES! Yes, even though we are confronted with miseries or life tragedies, we can still afford to be jolly in this Yuletide Season. Christmas is a reminder that WE HAVE A SAVIOR who shall redeem us! and for that we shall rejoice. :D

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

PS: Here are a couple of pictures of our handa to thank the Lord God for all the blessings and welcome Jesus Christ, the Newborn! :D

Christmas Eve



Christmas Day!

I desire.

To desire, as they say, is to wish earnestly for something. We long for things because we think or feel that it can satisfy our needs and wishes. It can be an object, an emotion, an achievement and whatnot. As a person, who doesn't aspire, desire? I bet no one... because as a human being, we naturally want to attain self-fulfillment. Hence, we do something about it in any way possible. :)

A few days ago, I received this

salmon pink rose

It's been roughly a year and 7 months since I last received a rose this beautiful. This is actually a kris kringle gift from a blockmate. I did some researching over the net and found out that salmon pink roses meant "to desire for something/someone". :D I truly love this gift for I had a couple of realizations again.

First, it led me to another self-check session! It's my way of knowing myself more -- knowing what I really want in life. ;)

I realize that I desire so much... too much, maybe. :D For instance, I want to become a pediatrician, an inspirational blogger, write my own book, perform on stage for a musical, and publish my own scientific journals as a biologist. I even have this thought of getting my hair blonde, changing my whole wardrobe with one-of-a-kind clothes and all that! I always think that miracles can happen like getting back my perfect vision of 20/20 I used to have, getting thin and even taller and becoming a model or better yet an ambassador of an organization. Personally, I always dream to marry a man that is worth my existence (obsession as it may be, I find Tegoshi Yuya potentially good as a hubby lah~ XD ) But seriously, I pray that I can have a family of my own, living our lives in prosperity and in happiness. :D I plan to build a house inspired by Koreanovelas like the one Hyun Bin had in Secret Garden...and eventually call it a home. :D I want to travel the world, and touch other people's lives as well. My desires as stated above can be outrageously witty or even out of my range; others... well, they can be achieved in God's time. ;)

Second, I shall desire not to seek people's attention, but to do good deeds and bring good news for His glory.

I can desire all I want, daydream like forevuh, but there will always be a limitation (i.e., we can't be the person we wish we could be if there were MORE EXCITING things set before us as written in God's will).

I told myself before that the moment I stepped into school, I was in for the wild ride! It's like I accepted a contract wherein I can be crashed into pieces if I flaunt, or reigned The Holy One if I do good. LOL! *crazy me starts here* But you get my point? It can be really stressful when you are pressured by the society you are in. Hence, I initially thought that I MUST DO GOOD; If not, then I'm out of this game.

I always felt that way before. I did things because I want others to think that I'm good -- someone who is intellectual, responsible and all that. But then, I realized that I WAS living a life of a puppet on string. During that time, my only wish was to stay on top... and if I fail to reach that "threshold potential" of success in order for me to get going, I'd be sad about it.

As I grew, I accepted the fact that I cannot have all the things I long for. :) All I have now on Earth will be gone when I reunite with Him, so I have set my mind to do things or deeds that can nourish my soul. :) I now think that my life on Earth must be used efficiently for the glory of God. I feel that the spotlight must not be put upon me. Rather, my life shall be utilized in order for others to see The Light who is Him. :D

Sharing you my thoughts is the best way for me to start anew. :) This Yuletide season, may we continue to set our goals right! It's never too late, so there! Have a merry holiday, everyone!