December: Shall Recover!

If you were a relative, you'd know how devastating my November was to me. It's like a month long of instability, indecisiveness, and literal mourning -- not only for me, but for my whole extended family. It's not easy to move on, and I know that there will be times that even if I try to make myself busy with academics, the moment I sit and just think freely, the thoughts of the recent past would flashback out of nowhere. It's not the typical sadness someone can get from heartbreaks nor in teenage dramas; it's more of [protected] a life and death kind of thing. Life can be taken like a breeze, y'know? So swift that you can't even catch up! The catch in this "drama of my life" is that it's not just one event, not two, but three.

If you're a recent reader, you'd know a couple of unfortunate news about my offline life. I haven't spilled all the beans yet actually, coz I bet no one would want to get negative vibes. But even if I don't want to make it a big deal, like sharing it all over the world like a boss through blogging, I just can't let the "unhealthy" vibes eat me up.

It's funny how easy-go-lucky I can be especially in school-- just LOLing most of the time with my blockmates and all. But when I get time for myself, alone... WOW That'd be another story -- a totally opposite story! I think I also have the problem, ne? coz I can't really open up with closed friends when it comes to personal matters. It's weird of me that I can ACTUALLY talk about it more here in this blog than with people I know personally, don't you think? Hmm. I guess it's part of my personality not to let others see how weak I can get when it comes to things or people I cherish the most :')

So for the times I get to be emotional and a little weird, THANK YOU READERS! You may not notice but every comment you make -- the stories you share, the quotable statements, advices, and even the silliest jokes you type... they all make sense to me. They make me feel better! If I can just really extend the tightest hug to each of you, you know?
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ANYWAYS, As the title says,

I shall recover this December!

SM North EDSA, The Block Christmas Tree

It will be a good Healing Month for me. I must not let the past hinder me from enjoying life to the fullest and making this place better with my existence, ne? XD I know it's gonna be tough, but with God, with my family, and my friends (online or offline), I hope I won't forget to stand up! Please pray for my fast recovery. I want to regain the optimism, the hope, and the love. :)

Trying The Curls

I attended a symposium about Microbiology last weekend and was tasked to be an usherer for the said event. I tried curling my hair for the event... Now I'm thinking if I'd get a perm or just let my hair stay naturally wavy and just do whatsoever hairdo when needed. Here's a picture!

Hello curly hair! I find it really new whenever I curl my hair. I seldom do it! :)) But I like the outcome.

As usual, I have no ample amount of time to blog for hours or even visit your homes but I'll try after NMAT! :D I just thought I needed this break (aka blog in the middle of academic life) because I feel like I need to talk and share some stories with y'all before I explode in insanity! Till here!

What I'm Up To

My first week back to school = speechless. Pressure is everywhere! We are being bombarded by requirements and self-realizations now that we are in 3rd yr 2nd sem. It's like all the batteries I've "recharged" for my system to get back and win the battle is about to drain! LOL. XD I have four major subjects this semester which comprises Developmental Biology, Research Methodology, Microbiology, and Animal Physiology. Right now, I'm still a little bit relaxing, but I know things will turn out to be really REALLY toxic just before Christmas break commences. We shall prepare for the first blood shed of the semester aka exams #Exaggeration

Just awhile ago, we had a seatwork in Micro Bio Lab. The task was to draw examples of the following microorganisms -- under Protista, Fungi, and Eubacteria. Here's a piece of paper of what I submitted! LOL

On another note, here's what I just ate for dinner! ~Pomodor Sechi and Panini bread~

Pomodor Sechi and Panini bread

This was given by my sister as a "pasalubong". I can't ask anything greater than having a family who's there anytime. We never fail to cope with one another either through text messages, phone calls, get-together's or food treats!! ^-^ #blessed

'Til here!

PS: I decided to leave my previous account. I'm now tweeting at @OUJOHARU You can follow my twitter account, which I ALWAYS update! :D

Forever Young

Got a new phone under my dad's name -- Samsung Galaxy Young. I like how Young was put at the end of the phone's brand name. I'm using a SMART sim for this phone, and hopefully this phone will be used especially for acad-related stuff like PDFs and research. HAHA I know, I'm such a weirdo(?) XD

It was my first day of classes yesterday. Apparently, only 1 out of 3 professors showed up and we only spent 15 minutes for that subject. Sometimes I think, I should've not gone to school on a first day because more often than not there'll be no such thing as "classes" anyway. :D Nevertheless, seeing my blockmates was good! Whenever I see my friends, I can't help but smile. IT's as if the mood that I got from the past mishaps turned into a more optimistic one. That's what I like about being busy and getting things to work on -- I can distract myself away from bad vibes.

Here I am alone again at home. My parents usually eat breakfast at Mcdonald's on Saturdays, and they take food to go for me to eat! :D Ciao for now.

Lookout for a Loved One

Three of my relatives are now reunited with God -- my uncle-in-law, grandmom-in-law, and my dearest uncle -- all from the mother side. The death of my uncle affected me the most. We used to celebrate family occasions together, especially Christmas. What makes life in this world so unpredictable is the fact that the day before he died, we were still able to talk over the phone and sing a song merrily. I had no idea, instinct, nor ESP that it would be his last hello from him, last conversation with me. Although I know that we are souls and that we wander around... and we can be fortunate to see them in the next life, the feeling of losing a person whom you are used to be with especially in times of merriment... it's the last thing I'd want to feel.

For the past days my cousins and I were the ones who stayed at the funeral to look over the place. My usual lookout hours (while others are asleep) is from 1-6AM. During that span of time, I pray and talk to my uncle, study for NMAT, and watch over my relatives who were asleep. I feel so sad but I need to be strong. Life will be tougher the next time, I know. Only few people close to me know about this. I just wanted to let my sad feelings out; thanks to this blog and of course to you my netfriends!

On another note, here are two tags I got recently from two of my blogfriends, Gail and Esma. Read on to know more about me! ;)

Gail's Tag:

• Thank and link back to the blogger who gave you the award


• Share 7 things about yourself


• Pass it along to at least 15 fabulous bloggers


• Contact the bloggers you awarded to let them know about the award

1. My height is 4"11.5' Yes, I still need a 0.5 inch to be 5 feet. Nonetheless, I say I'm 5" tall! LOLOLOL crazy height!
2. I use Heinz ketchup for fries and Jufran for chicken! #exclusively XD
3. I am very much into Jdorama and Kdrama, so if you are too, then we are Asian Drama buddies! lmao
4. I like singing and blending in esp in a choir
5. I wanted to learn breakdance but yea, fail XD I love dancing tho!
6. Milk tea is one of my favorite drinks
7. I believe in past lives

Esma's Tag

• 1. In what part you and me clique? Jdorama and Kdrama fan! That was the very first thing that popped out my mind, hehe


• 2. How long we've been known each other? I guess less than a month... :)


• 3. Extreme sport that you really want to do? Not really sporty. The only sports I learned because I need to pass the subject is swimming. Thanks to it though, I can now swim! LOL


• 4. Peanut butter or chicken ham mayo sandwiches? Peanut butter sandwiches are my fave with matching coffee!


• 5. Would you like to be my friend in real world? Why not, Esma! ^^ I think it would be great to know someone from another country. I hope I can learn your language too. I have this goal (sort of) to learn different languages so that when I tour the world, I can communicate with everyone freely :)


• 6. What course/job that you into? I'm taking up BS biology right now as a pre-med course. Hopefully, I get to graduate as a pediatrician.


• 7. Risk taker or play safe? I play safe now. HEHE


• 8. Do you find me attractive? Lol Yes! Love your hair too.


• 9. When is your birthday? May 3 :D


• 10. Like SNSD too? I like hearing their songs but not really a fanatic. I am more into Jpop especially NEWS and Arashi! :D


• 11. You are an early bird or an owl type of person?Both. :D I need to become a night owl person especially because there are a lot of things to study, however, I must not sacrifice time in the morning so I get to be an early bird when needed so as not to be late for class! If I have free time, I see to it to sleep and rest. :D

The Hot Seat

I think this is yet one of the tags that make me think a lot. LOL! Thanks to sis Mei Chagas for tagging me with the trending tag which I just answered a couple of days ago (see this post) So here's the 3rd tag I'm answering! :D

1. What is love?

Love is when you do your best to understand something/someone even if it’s not easy. It also lets you sacrifice some things when needed. It will also make you happy in the end. (What I mean about happy in the end is not just about YOU being happy. More often than not when we love, what makes the other person or thing happy outweighs what you desire for personal satisfaction. We are more concerned of what they feel, what they want. So basically, it doesn’t guarantee YOUR HAPPINESS. You get to realize love when it’s not just all about you, you and you.

2. If you can only eat one kind of food to eat in your entire life, what would it be?

PIZZA! Everything’s in it ;)

3. What is your ideal age to get married?

I guess I’d say 32. I still have lots of years to learn and become a full-pledged doctor. I hope I can settle on my own before getting married. I also want to enjoy my life being single with my girl-friends!

4 How do you gain self-confidence?

I condition myself! I believe that it’s all in the mind. You cannot be confident enough, if in the first place you feel bad about yourself. Do what pleases you –- may it be make-ups or great clothing, good grades or even be good at sports. A good support system with friends and family is also a factor. I gain lots from them, emotionally and spiritually!

5. What is your greatest fear?

I cannot think of anything that I fear the most.

6. Are you in favor of the RH Bill? Why?

Yes. I do not believe that it destructs morality nor does it make people sex-inclined. RH Bill has more to say, and as a bill, it does help in rearing children, taking care of the whole family (by family planning), and parents, especially the mothers.

7. If you will be the president of the Philippines for a day, what is the first thing you will do?

Hold a State of the Nation Address and say what I believe is the problem of the country, request for everyone’s cooperation, and convince them that whatever the government does, if the people of the country don’t take part, then problems will stay as is.

8. Why do you think people celebrate Halloween?

Well it has become a tradition already. I do believe it’s still celebrated today because of the costumes and candies.

9. What kind of food will you never eat even if you will be given one million dollars for it?

Anything that will make me a cannibal.

10. Who is the most handsome guy in the whole world?

Seriously now? TEGOSHI YUYA =)) How I wish I knew him really, (well I somehow believe I knew him in my past life[click here for the crazy stuff], LOL!) But if you know him personally…. as a friend, can you introduce him to me? XD *okay stay put Sandra and control your fangirling side*

11. What do you think of me? :)

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